Fat

Once again struggling with the same old issue, a little wiser but no more successful. I’m feeling really down on myself tonight about it. I know it’s time to start up again but this week is going to be hell. Worst part is, I don’t have anyone at work to ask for help. It’s all on my shoulders.

Things have gotten better since the holidays. I don’t much give a shit what people think anymore, emotionally at least. Yet there are a few people.. who I would like to impress, I suppose. Very, very few.

Mostly I want to get into shape for me. It would be an amazing accomplishment, and I’m tired of seeing myself deteriorate. I just lack discipline and self-control. Easy to say, not so easy to fix.