I swear to God
Posted by Keiri on September 8th, 2006 filed in UncategorizedThis is getting so fucking old. It’s like pulling teeth. I’m lonely. I’m tired of trying so hard to hang out with people I care about. I feel like a burden half the time, and I have to do all the heavy lifting so to speak.
First Wes, now Albert.
What the fuck?
Why don’t people want to make an effort with me? Don’t they care?
September 12th, 2006 at 9:46 am
Don’t hate me for saying this K, but take it as constructive critism instead.
Is it possible you’re looking in the wrong places for people that care about you? Or that the people that you’ve chosen to be in that group are incapable of showing you that they care?
If it’s the latter, then they aren’t the type of people you should be trying ellicit care from, are they? Your needs are for people to openly show you that they care for you, and yet, the people you keep choosing to get attached to are not doing that, while there are many people that are more than willing to openly care about you who you openly reject.
People do care, you just need to open your eyes to them.
September 12th, 2006 at 9:56 am
How can I hate you? I don’t even know who you are. Hehe. In any case, it’s something to think about.
September 14th, 2006 at 4:14 pm
It can be a challenge to make an effort with someone who really doesn’t like themself. And where is your spouse? I’ve always had the funky notion they’re supposed to be your best friend and primary source of emotional support. Maybe that’s just me, though.
I suppose a major life change at this point might be too much to suggest, especially since you invested so much time, effort, and money into law school, but since you’re primarily stressed, tired, pissed, anguished, lonely, etc, you might think about doing something else. Obviously the ego boost or sense of moral superiority or whatever the inspiration was isn’t cutting it. I realize you have medical bills and probably school loans to repay, but is torture for the rest of your natural life worth paying them off faster?
September 14th, 2006 at 4:48 pm
Keep in mind that this is just a place for me to vent – sometimes way more negatively than reality.
September 18th, 2006 at 11:37 pm
first off, if you can’t comment with something constructive, then don’t comment at all.
secondly, anyone who doesn’t know that a blog is a place to rant and that it doesn’t always convey the positive aspects of one’s life obviously doesn’t quite grasp the concept of what a blog is utilized for.
don’t criticize if you don’t know the circumstances. k did not go to law school because of the supposed prestige associated with it. she is doing something she wanted to do. end of story.
September 19th, 2006 at 6:27 am
I thought she went to Law School for the sheer masochistic delight of it all.
And the guys.
And maybe the chicks.
But mostly the in-room internet.
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September 19th, 2006 at 7:02 pm
Well, yeah, that too