New Job
Posted by Keiri on June 2nd, 2006 filed in UncategorizedThe new job I posted about is still going really well. Nobody’s uptight, I don’t need to worry about my mouth cuz i’m probably the tamest mouth around.
I’m happy in a lot of ways with my life.
In some ways, I’m down in the dumps.
Jarrod asked me who made me feel so worthless.
Not sure I needed any help on that front, but if anyone did help do that…
I can’t help but wonder why I let them – it’s not like they intended to or even knew they did it.
Some days I feel unwantable. Afraid, fat, ugly, sick, uptight and unwantable.
Other days I feel strong and internally beautiful. I want hope things will change. How can they? I find a tiny bit of happiness and I feel it shadowed in darkness.
June 2nd, 2006 at 9:11 pm
Like I’ve said many times before K, you’re one of the strongest people I know in a lot of ways. It does very much seem like you’ve let people convince you that you aren’t worth the ground you walk on. You need to know, and believe that this isn’t even remotely true and that SO many people value you very highly and love you very much for the person you are, even when you’re at your very worst. Of course, I can tell you this until the cows come home and it won’t matter until you believe it for yourself, but perhaps hearing it from others will push you in the right direction to believe in yourself and KNOW that you are an amazing person, capable of spectacular things.
I love and miss you K, and hope to hear from you soon.
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