Friends

I hate it when I trust someone and they screw me over. In WoW, this has already happened a few times. I forgot you can’t trust people easily, I forgot you shouldn’t stick up for them unless you are prepared to get screwed somewhere down the line.

But at this point I have bigger problems. Someone I care about. He’s got issues. When I keep my mouth shut, I find I can handle it. When I share with people things he’s said or done, I hear how bad it sounds and I get upset. And they get upset with him. Rightly so.. some of it is downright awful. Why do I want to protect him so much?

Sometimes I feel like changing servers and phone numbers, blocking his email. Other times I want to make it all better. I’m so confused. I was over most of it until someone brought up something they heard him say to me. Something terrible. And now I’m all wound up again, upset about it once more, protective again, confused again. I wish I understood better what he is – who he is. I wish I understood better why I feel this way.