Poor Kitsune

Posted by Keiri on April 4th, 2005 filed in Uncategorized

Kitty’s been bugging me since Friday to update on the job situation. I have had trouble being anything but incommunicado due to peaking stress levels rarely felt in my body. Last time I felt this stressed was when I lost my driver’s license in the airport right after 9/11. I alm0st passed out then.

Well, the interview went great. Really great. And then I got home and got a job offer from interview #1. Shit. I really liked that guy. Now after begging for until monday to make the decision, putting HIM out, I have to tell him no. Because I called job #3 to ask them what I should do about this other offer, and they said I am their top candidate but they cannot make promises. They have more interviews to do next week.

So I went bonkers. I would be taking a sleeping pill right NOW if I wasn’t that I have to call this poor guy at 9 am and break the news to him. I hope he won’t be mad at me. I have this horrible reaction to telling people no. I feel guilty.. no I won’t rent your apartment, no I won’t date you, no I won’t take this job.. yowch. Even thinking about it sucks. Bad. Who would have thought a cold-facade tough cookie like me would suck so bad at rejecting people? I just want to give them what they want. And I can’t.

God damn this morning will blow.

And I might be letting one bird in the hand go for two in the bush…


2 Responses to “Poor Kitsune”

  1. echrai Says:
    April 4th, 2005 at 10:52 pm

    Hrm. No way to tell them that you’re interested but another offer’s pending? Ick. And yes, I’ve been checking you regularly, wondering. :) I think that’s a little known fact about attorneys. Most of us who head in that direction are actually people pleasers. We just get a bum rap by people who think that we’re all blood-sucking leeches. So says the girl who has yet to finish first year. Blech. Good luck, sweetie. I go through the same thing every time I have to say “No” too. I need lessons in assertiveness for self-sufficient women, subtitled how to abstain from guilt. :) Wanna join me?

  2. Kitsune Says:
    April 6th, 2005 at 12:50 am

    Wow! Congrats and I’m sorry at the same time. I hope that #1 will agree to wait a week so you can here back from #3. Despite that, how awsome is that? A job offer and a half!

    Now I get to bug you about an update for #3!

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