after the long weekend…

Back to work in a few hours. The long weekend was nice. Jarrod and I spent it mostly relaxing, although we did go to see Hero. It was a little skimpy on plot but very beautiful and colorful. I enjoyed it. We also finished watching Lain, an anime series we’ve been watching for two weeks now after we borrowed it from Jarrod’s friend at work. That was very weird, but worth watching, although I’d say the last episode left a lot to be desired. I’ve also just started watching a few episodes of Naruto, which is very funny.

I have a mediation this morning, one which the people specifically requested not Fernando so I’m stuck with it. It will be my first alone since last week’s mediation had to be given up to Fernando alone so I could help the judge. I am beginning to grow fonder of the people at work but I’m still anxious about going.. I hope the judge doesn’t expect me to be available in the morning because in all likelihood I won’t be available until 1 or 2 pm.

I’ve been playing star wars a lot this weekend because it doesn’t take much – no, any – effort. All I do is set up my musician macro and let it go. I’m going for master musician and I haven’t decided yet whether I want master entertainer again, since I got that before the badge system went in. I was going to go architect but now that my guild added some new players to it, we have two architects already. So now I’m focussing on entertainer professions and I’m not sure what I’m going to do about the other stuff. Maybe I’ll quit artisan altogether after I do the crafting jedi quests they just added.

Not much else is going on. I’ve learned I can’t take that trimspa stuff while on this diet or I get insanely hungry. I need to stick to regular multivitamins and my one-a-day diet aid vitamin, and also my doctor suggested a fiber pill. I blew my diet this weekend due to messing with the trimspa pills so I figure I need to start over again tomorrow and be more careful. Other than that it hasn’t been TOO TOO hard. Jarrod has been respectful of my needs, but I think I need to re-look at how I feel about eating. I’ve discovered I find it very relaxing and comforting, and pleasureable… mostly pleasureable.. and I need to find something else to fill that gap which will be missing. I need to find something I enjoy to take the place of the joy I get from eating pasta or other tasty foods. I need to change my head, and I haven’t figured out how yet. So so far, I’ve been the one short-circuiting myself, not Jarrod. He’s been really great, he’s even started taking some vitamins too.

I’m also not sleepy but I did nap a while today. My anti-anxiety pill apparently didn’t help so much. As you can probably tell by my babbling.

I’m going to go now and do a crossword and pray I get sleepy before 2 am.. I have to be at work in time to set up for my ten am mediation…. wish me luck.